When two people love each other
deeply a transformation process takes place because each one desires to become
like the other. A union is verified by tending to unity.
St. John of the Cross says:
“Each one seems to be the other and both are not two but one”. This can happen
between Christ and a soul that loves Him with the greatest love that a human
being is capable of: its humanity comes to a point where it identifies itself
with the Humanity of Christ. Alexandrina and her Jesus are an example of this.
The extraordinary fact that
Alexandrina survived feeding herself solely with Jesus (Eucharist and Blood
transfusion) “shows the world the value of the Eucharist” (Ch 9), but it is also
the signal that Jesus desired to establish a particularly strong union with her,
a complete union. Alexandrina, for her part, corresponded with a total, oblative
love, she wanted “to lose herself”, she wanted “to disappear” in her Spouse, in
her Everything, annulling her “I”. It can be seen here how union becomes unity.
It is beautiful to think about
two rain drops running down the glass pane of a window: if they approach in such
a way as to touch each other, they become a single drop: one disappears into the
The first steps of this way had
already been taken in 1928, when Alexandrina felt a strong analogy between her
condition of a paralysed, bed-ridden prisoner, and that of Jesus in the
tabernacle (vide Ch 2).
Since 1942, the intimate
reliving of the Passion (ch. 11), not only on Fridays but more intensely and
interiorly, brings her to a state favourably conducive to unity. Look what Jesus
says to her:
love, love, love! Your heart and mine is one: you are wholly transformed into
Me. I am your life: you do not have human life, you have divine life. You do
not have the life of Earth, you live the life of Heaven. Your life will always
have thorns, a thorn will penetrate another thorn and, thus crucified like Me,
you will pass into Heaven, nailed on the cross for my love. S (18-9-43)
Of course the transformation is
Your life is
the life of Christ: Christ lives transformed into you. You climb Calvary,
because I cannot climb it now. You carry the cross, because I cannot carry it
either. You are a sacrificed and immolated lamb. You surrender your life in the
greatest agony, because I cannot suffer like this now. S (16-2-45)
Alexandrina was very conscious
of not being, of herself, a human creature, capable of fulfilling alone the
great mission of the salvation of souls.
My will is
ready, but nature, poor nature, dislikes suffering so much; it tries many times
to say: I cannot, I cannot more!
And it is
true, Jesus, that I cannot. But You can! It is You who suffer, it is You who
walk Calvary, it is You who take up and love the cross which You give me.
I cannot, I
do not live, do not suffer, do not love - I do not exist. But what exists is the
breath of your life that passes through me. S (8-7-49)
Concerning this “breath”, in
1955, Jesus was to say to her:
Have courage! Repeat always
your “I believe”. (…) This breath has gone out over the whole world; through you
(humanity) has already received the breath of grace, the breath of love. Those
who take advantage of it are fortunate indeed. S (20-5-55)
Let us return to 1949. Jesus
reminds her of the saving value of her extraordinary life.
Christ is in your eyes, Christ
is on your lips, Christ is in your thoughts, in your heart and in your soul: it
is the living Christ, acting in all your movements, in all your life. Courage,
my daughter! You are Christ reclothed; it is Christ grafted on your members, on
your body, so that the work of redemption, the work of salvation continues.
Christ cannot suffer now, but the work of salvation must go on. S (8-4-49)
You live in
Christ and for Christ. All your life is Christ. You are the joy and the glory of
the Almighty. Trust, trust, my daughter: I work and operate great wonders in you
for my glory and for the benefit of souls. S (30-12-49)
Alexandrina was always afraid of
being deceived about the mystical phenomena which she experienced but did not
understand. She was afraid they might be the fruit of her imagination. Jesus
Do not fret
if you do not understand your life, because it is impossible for the human
creature to understand the divine life: in Heaven you will understand it. In
Heaven you will see without a doubt that you only lived through Me. S
daughter, my daughter, what a union of our hearts! There is nothing that can
separate them. We suffer in the same pain, we love in the same love: I am one
with you. I live in you the same life that I live with the Father, and I am one
with you as I am with Him. I came to Earth for the Father, in the name of the
Father, to save mankind. You, in My name, in Me and for Me, continue My work of
salvation. S (1-7-50)
Let us now look at one of
Alexandrina’s ecstasies of love, the love we have spoken of as a blood
My head lay on Jesus’ lap. It
seemed me to be in the centre of an immense, infinite fire of love. These
flames, this fire penetrated in my whole being. My heart and my soul had taken a
new life. I was no longer me: there was only Jesus. I felt as if I fell asleep
there… (as happens during a transfusion).
What a dilatation I
experienced (in the heart)! My tiny heart was vast as Heaven.
I did not
have the strength to contain such immensity.
Jesus, I cannot! I do not offer resistance to the greatness of your love.
I am here,
my daughter: with Me you have nothing whatever to fear. I conquer, I suffer, I
love in you. You are transformed into Christ, you live the life of Christ, you
give the life of Christ to souls. S (15-9-50)
in one heart - Jesus says - set on fire in one single flame, linked in one
single chain of love. S (26-12-52)
There follows here a brief
dialogue which gives evidence of the generosity of Alexandrina’s love for her
Heart suffers through your heart; my divine Heart loves through your love. I
love, and I love you; you love with my love, you give yourself for my love; you
spent yourself, you are consumed by love for me and for souls.
and I suffer in you. (...) I suffer in you without suffering. I am the strength
in you. You suffer so that I do not suffer. You love so that I am more and more
loved. All pain is in your heart, and the consolation and the joy is mine.
It is well,
it is right, Jesus. With this I am content. That my heart should suffer so that
Yours does not, this is my desire. To love You and to console You are my
greatest concerns. To spend myself for You, to do everything and to suffer
everything for You without wasting one moment, my Jesus. I do not have, no, I do
not have any other desire. Forgive me, my Love, I am so weak, so, so weak, my
Jesus. Make my life perfect, just as you would have it.
O light, O
shining sun, O continuation of the work of Jesus on earth! Your mission is
perfect and with all perfection you fulfil it. S (18-9-53)
Now, to conclude, still on the
theme of unity, here are two fragments, all the stronger and more incisive for
their brevity. Jesus says:
I am the
light of your eyes,
the movement of your lips,
the love and the Lord of your heart. S (3-9-48)
And Alexandrina, in Gethsemane,
relives the Passion:
I was Jesus
and Jesus was me:
we two were
the same offering to Heaven. S (15-8-45)