Alexandrina, chosen by Jesus for so
high a mission and made powerful in saving souls for Him, could not help but be
a target for Satan to wound with persistence and fury.
There is reference of an initial
intervention in 1933.
On 18th October 1933
Alexandrina enrols in the “Children of Mary”. In the letter to Fr Pinho of 27th
October she writes:
The “little cripple” (the
demon) was almost able to arrange that I was not (affiliated in the Children of
Mary), but Our Lord won. C (27-10-33)
He made many attempts to prevent
her from being in touch with Fr Pinho.
Pinho, do you want to know what the black face of hell – because only he could
make it - brought into my head? That what I sent to Your Rev. would damn me, and
that this was absolutely certain. C (14-9-34)
With insistence the devil tried
to convince her that everything supernatural that was happening to her was the
fruit of her fancy.
today, afflicted me very much with doubts, telling me that I invent things in my
head, and for vanity. He made me cry; cursed be he! C (6-8-35)
He tries repeatedly to induce
her to commit suicide.
The demon wanted me to burn
everything, and not send anything more to Your Reverence. He said that by doing
that I could still save myself. He also said that I should kill myself, and that
he could arrange a way that would cost me nothing. I am suffering very much
(since 1928 when she lost hope of the cure) without any rewards, because it
seems that Our Lord does not have any love for me. C (10-1-35)
Satan also used the apparent
death. (C 3)
He began by
saying that the time was approaching when my lies would be discovered, that the
truth would be known, because I would not die at the time indicated.
- Kill yourself! Listen to
me: I will choose for you a death that will cost nothing; if you don’t accept
this offer, what a shame! C (14-5-36; such death happened in 7-6-36, vide Ch
months that he threatened me, the demon’s assaults redoubled.
It was in
July 1937 that the “little cripple”, not satisfied with tormenting my conscience
and saying excessively ugly things to me, began to attack me without warning
from below the bed, at night, and at any hour of the day. (...)
One night he flung me – over
the bed of my sister who was close to me (on a mattress) – to the ground. She
got up, took me in her arms, and said: “Come to your bed.” No sooner had she had
laid me down, than I was up again and hissing. (A, p. 42)
This thing happened again.
Moreover she suffered other attacks that disturbed her psychologically.
I had very
furious attacks twice a day, at 9 or 10 o’clock at night and in the afternoon.
They lasted about an hour or more. During the attacks, I felt in myself all the
anger and fury of hell. I could not bear them to talk to me about Our Lord and
our heavenly Mother, nor could I look upon their images without spitting at them
(…). I could also not bear to be close to my Director; I called him ugly names,
I wanted to beat him and a deadly anger against him raged in me. (…) Today I
wish that people might see these things if only to inspire a fear of hell and a
resolve not to offend Jesus. (A, pp. 43-44)
Fr Pinho was present at some of
these attacks. In the Biography he described that of 7th October
fights, she, paralytic and tortured by pain, drained of strength, and weighing
only about 33 kg, tried violently to tear herself to pieces against the iron of
the bed-head, to bite herself, etc. Four people couldn’t manage to restrain her
at all. This is what we saw that day; and the demon driving her to blaspheme and
use foul words of which she didn’t even know the meaning, as she later admitted
certain that we were witnessing a diabolic attack and not one of hysteria, we
commanded in Latin:
In nomine Jesu, dic mihi: tu quis es?
(In the name of Jesus, tell me
who you are?)
immediately, without any hesitation:
— I am Satan
and I hate you!
certainty, we changed the phrase, though still in Latin, and the reply, also
immediate, was this:
— It’s me, it’s me, do not doubt
it! (NoC, p. 92 port.)
Two weeks later, Alexandrina
wrote to Fr Pinho:
developed a great horror of the demon’s attacks! (...) I want to suffer very
much, very much for love of my beloved Jesus, but now it seems to me that I am
not now capable of more. (...)
— My daughter, (she hears
Jesus saying) there are many demons that afflict you, but there are also
millions and millions of sinners who offend me at this point.
daughter! It cost you much to be treated like this, I know it well. But what
costs more is more consoling to your Jesus. My heart is constrained seeing you
suffering in this way!
I must tell you, my daughter,
that the confrontations will not be many: I will stay the demons’ access to
you. I want you to be more alone with me, in your inner soul (He comes to
comfort her, to give her courage). I want you in my most holy arms, with that
simplicity which a little child has in the arms of its mother. C (21-10-37)
With the end of this year, 1937,
these tremendous attacks finished, but her work of reparation didn’t finish.
daughter! The attacks have finished, but they will not lose one instant to
torment you in order to make you fall. Trust in Me: your soul has the whiteness
and the perfume of the iris and the amaryllis. (...)
daughter: this method of warfare is finished. You have won, and with a great
will not treat you in this way again. They will attack you, horribly, painfully,
but in such a way that you will be able to suffer in front of people without
them perceiving it. C (29-10-37)
Fr Pinho confirms:
The diabolic fights with
corporal attacks had, indeed, ceased forever; never more did the demon touch her
until her death. But the enemy does not disarm and will struggle using all the
means within his reach against the heroic victim until the end. (NoC p. 98 port.)
Against sacred objects
Satan, being deprived those
assaults, vented his anger in other ways.
wants me to remove all the “bigotry” that I have at my breast and in my hand,
that is my crucifix. (…) He wants me to discard the objects that he hates. C
If he hates them, that means
that they serve for some thing!
Some year later (we do not know
with precision because Alexandrina does not speak about this in her writings) –
Fr Umberto Pasquale says in his book Alexandrina, p. 140 – the demon
carried off her crucifix that she had fixed with a pin in the shirt next to her
heart (this shirt, with the mended rent is conserved, together with other
relics, in Alexandrina’s House). About two years later it was found interred in
This precious crucifix is at
present in the keeping of the “Eucharistic-Marian Group of Blessed Alexandrina”,
Another sacred object fell in
the claws of the demon: a little statue in metal of the heavenly Mother, that he
stole from her on 8th December 1947 and was found on 21st
October 1948, buried in the pigsty. In the diary we can read:
The tiny image of my beloved heavenly Mother,
having been found, was returned to me yesterday morning. It had disappeared on 8th
December last. I loved it very much and suffered greatly at its loss.
When I saw
it, I covered it with kisses, I hugged it. I do not know how to say what I felt
inside: It was more than just a feeling of joy; I had longed so much to see it
and to have it again.
For a long
time I could not keep my eyes off it: the pain of it made my heart bleed: how
dirty it was!
later, I felt as if all hell, and all its demons descended on my soul. In it I
felt the roars and howl of the cursed ones and felt as if they were mauling me
and all my body. (...)
Some time later, in the same
diary, the explanation is given by Jesus (heard in ecstasy):
— The anger
of Satan against you is very great, because he sees souls fleeing from him.
(...) He wants to drive you to desperation and, as he does not achieve this, he
despairs. I compelled him to give back to you the image of my Mother, which he
stole on the feast of Her Immaculate Conception. Do you know why? Do you
remember that during the novena his attacks on you had been forbidden? He,
enraged, tried to avenge himself and he took it in his teeth. I allowed that
he could not hold it for more than a moment without being obliged to put it
down: he was more burnt by it than by the fire of hell itself. I allowed this in
order to give to the image a higher value, greater memories. (...) They were his
roars of anger, that you felt and heard when it was returned to you. The pain
that you felt when seeing it in such a state is the pain that she feels in her
most holy Heart when she hears the blasphemies and the heresies pronounced
against her and against Me. S (22-10-48)
A sacred object used for love
Jesus uses a sacred object to
give her comfort, along with other means, such as the help of angels and Holy
Communions mystically made. Let’s record these episodes, where love wins.
Years ago I used always to have at my side, and
mainly at night between my arms, a crucified Jesus.
At first I
did not have it and it appeared at my side. It had been on the wall.
From Monday to Tuesday (the
diary entry is for a Friday), by night also, the crucifix from the wall appeared
to me again, on my breast, between my arms, under the clothes, as if it had been
placed there. It impressed me: it seemed like a dream. I spoke about that
spontaneously, without thinking about writing anything (but she was obliged to
describe what happened and to ask Jesus its meaning). (...)
— O Jesus,
accept my sacrifice! Whether I want to or not, I have to obey and to ask to you
the meaning of the coming of your crucified image on my chest.
sweetly, sat down, placed me on his lap, drew my head onto his divine Heart and
said to me:
— I want you
to speak to me without fear and with all simplicity. I do not want you to be
wanting, nor to will. To want what I want is to do my will.
that I detached myself from the wall and went to you was plain and simple: the
Crucified One wants ever to be joined to his crucified one.
cannot, my daughter, dispense with your caresses of my image, and your acts of
love. My Passion is at each moment renewed and, receiving your caresses and
love, my sufferings disappear, I forget sins and I treat the sinners with
It is yet another light that I
add to all the other lights that I put into your life; these will form, in time,
a radiating sun for souls the whole world over. You are, and will always be,
the light of humanity. S
This image had been
given to her by Fr. Pinho in the first years of his direction.
Alexandrina was never separated
from it. Usually she had it next to her heart, putting it in charge of
loving Jesus for her. During the phenomenon of the physical Passion she
had it pressed in her fist in such a way that no human force was able to
remove it. (...) After Alexandrina’s death, it was sent by Deolinda to
Fr Pinho in Baía, in Brazil. It is not known who has it now. (C G, pp.
She had substituted the crucifix that she always had for one that Fr.
Pinho had given her. Later she had offered this (it is not known to
whom) and had asked that they return the first one. Whoever it was had
forgotten to return it and she did not ask it again so as not to cause a
fuss. Surely, however, after this extraordinary fact, it had been
returned to her.